I don't want knowledge, I want certainty

Omg so much to tell since last I posted,
tho there isnt really anyone reading any of this,But thats ok I'll just write for me.


Ok so Rob came and visited and it was the best 2 weeks of my life,
He was charming , Sweet and got along with my friends quite nicely.When we were alone together it was so Perfect,
we'd wake up early get ready and then head out to this coffee shop near my place
where we would sit, read the paper, I would have my Chai tea and he would have his Mocha Latte.
Then we'd be off somewhere like Metrotown where he would make all the women who met him Swoom.(he claims he never noticed but as soon as he spoke I saw them blush, hehe its ok im not the jelouse type)

We spent alot of time down at Stanley park, checking out the sites and chilling at the pool along second beach.Had lots of fun in the pool with him,just splashing around and I even carried him around in the pool^.^.

There were so many things that just felt so right when I was with him, We could just be so causaul with each other , like when he would rest his head on my lap ,looking so Innocent that I just didnt want to move him at all.
I had the most wonderful sleep when he was here, usually I will wake up terrified if someone enters the room, but not with him.

Lol I know he loves me, he showed that when i got a bit drunk (due to challenge I could not refuse, you know who you are)He took care of me, didnt even get mad tho he does still tease me a bit about it but thats ok.

Well four months have passed and were still very much in love,
Hes returning on the 18 of november for my birthday,Can hardly wait I miss him terribly.
He sent me this beautiful braclet with a tiny heart on it, on the heart is a "R"
which stands for Rob and an Eternity circle, I love it so much that I never take it off and dont let anyone else touch it.

Well thats all i wanted to post for now at leaste....not that theres really anyone reading this.

You Might Think Im Crazy

Iam so happy right now,
Ive met the most perfect guy possible.
His name is Rob,
he's tall ,handsome,sweet,kind,funny,romantic and to top it all off British!!!.

Never have I met someone so similar to me in everyway,
Were both hopeless romantics with an adventurus streak, and share lots of intrest.
Its like I have found my soul mate, He is so wonderful in everyway, just when I think he cant be more perfect he says something that I hold so close to my heart.

He sent me flowers last week(though the florist wrecked the suprise by not delivering it on time) but it was such a romantic gesture, i absolutly loved the card he had sent it was so sweet.
(cant tell you what it says cause its too special to share)

I can hardly wait hes coming out this friday,
Yay!!
We have been having such long phone conversations, we just cant seem to get enough of each others voice(p.s he's got such a hot voice*melts*)
one night we talked for 6 hours till my phone died XD, lol the whole 8 hour diffrence seems to work for us quite nicely, when he has to go to work im going to bed(or should be)
and when I have to go to work he goes to bed and in between we talk as much as possible, we even were looking for houses online together lol

He just makes everything so much better,
makes the day so much brighter and makes life worth living. I feel I dont have to hide my heart from him,cause I dont belive he would break my heart he's just to kind for that.
He is the only one I have ever let call me Angel,
and no none of you may call me that, only he may.lol

well I wrap this up before I make you sick with my romantic notions.

-Angie

I was waiting for you ...

Well its mothersday today, and yet my mother is the furthest thing from my mind.
In fact my thoughts drfit to my stepfather as it is fast apporching the day of his death, my mother (the great defiler) drove him to suicide when she sent him away cause he wasnt of any uses to her, that and the fact that he loved me like his own.
He was such a wonderful person,He would take me on midnight walks to cash in pop bottles(he always bought me a treat with the money).

The day I found out he died I remeber it so clearly, It was a rainy day ,my mother called me into the living room and passed me the letter she seemed so smug about it.
I tried to read it but i wasnt very good at reading so she blurted out"Rick killed himself! He hung himself in his mothers house, because he hates you!" only later on did I re read the letter and found it wasnt my fault.

I started to write a song for him today Maybe ill post it later when I have it in its complete stage.

On to Less deppresssing Items...

Been listing to "lose you tonight"
gotta say its a pretty good song despite the singer.

My lil sister Shannon may come out this summer to visit me which will totally kick ass!
a chance to show off my talented little sister to my friends and also a few art schools,and im hopeing to show her just how perfect B.C really is in a attempt to have her move out here permanetly. Please check her site out and see just how talented she really is .http://www.freewebs.com/yori-umi/index.htm
Im just so freaking proud of her, so much proggress in only three years!

Was hanging out with Amy on friday night,god I miss hanging out with her
shes just such an easy person to be around, we hung out till late and then i made the treck back to my house.
Even though i was up so early on friday I still didnt get to bed till around 3 again.
I've been stuck in this pattern since the break up and cant seem to break it, lucky for me sebastian is usually still up so I at least have someone to chat with.

This week looks like it will present many chances for mischeif!! As I have three days off.
Im not sure what im gonna do but im sure it will be fun so I shall post that later.
I guess Ill wrap this up now.


Suggested song list:
1.Lose you tonight -HIM
2.Black no.1-Type-o-negitive
3.Yesterday-The Beatles
4.Vampirevision+methadonia-Screaming dead
5.Pictures of you-The cure

Why oh Why

Oh this is so unfair,
Im having Bad thoughts about my counselor , Yes I know its wrong on soo many levels.
But its hard ,cause he has the most beautiful eyes,smile ,a fit body,and god that british accent...eekk.
Its not like I want him cause he's in a position of comfort in my life, In fact I stoped seeing him whenI started to become attracted to him.
It's just a silly crush,The thing is Im a bit worried that If go back and see him again
Ill become infatuated,though I dont belive he'd do anything .
Besides I left in such an abrupt way I dont know how I would go back even If I wanted to.

Moving on
Ive been having so much fun since My ex's left,Ive gotten back together with my old friends
Including some Ex-bf's.
They have made things so much better and have made me feel less distrutive(still a bit destructive tho)Ive been having some flings and attending partys and just plain having a good time and Its about damn time!!!
Ive gained a better Understanding of who I am and of the things that motivate me.
I mainly owe Sebas a lot cause hes helped me alot more than he realizes,
he's always there to talk to and I truly belive that he is my friend( I feel a bit bad about how I unfairly droped him from my life for four years)

Im gonna wrap this up now ..

This is a good start to a blog

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