Why oh Why

Oh this is so unfair,
Im having Bad thoughts about my counselor , Yes I know its wrong on soo many levels.
But its hard ,cause he has the most beautiful eyes,smile ,a fit body,and god that british accent...eekk.
Its not like I want him cause he's in a position of comfort in my life, In fact I stoped seeing him whenI started to become attracted to him.
It's just a silly crush,The thing is Im a bit worried that If go back and see him again
Ill become infatuated,though I dont belive he'd do anything .
Besides I left in such an abrupt way I dont know how I would go back even If I wanted to.

Moving on
Ive been having so much fun since My ex's left,Ive gotten back together with my old friends
Including some Ex-bf's.
They have made things so much better and have made me feel less distrutive(still a bit destructive tho)Ive been having some flings and attending partys and just plain having a good time and Its about damn time!!!
Ive gained a better Understanding of who I am and of the things that motivate me.
I mainly owe Sebas a lot cause hes helped me alot more than he realizes,
he's always there to talk to and I truly belive that he is my friend( I feel a bit bad about how I unfairly droped him from my life for four years)

Im gonna wrap this up now ..