I was waiting for you ...

Well its mothersday today, and yet my mother is the furthest thing from my mind.
In fact my thoughts drfit to my stepfather as it is fast apporching the day of his death, my mother (the great defiler) drove him to suicide when she sent him away cause he wasnt of any uses to her, that and the fact that he loved me like his own.
He was such a wonderful person,He would take me on midnight walks to cash in pop bottles(he always bought me a treat with the money).

The day I found out he died I remeber it so clearly, It was a rainy day ,my mother called me into the living room and passed me the letter she seemed so smug about it.
I tried to read it but i wasnt very good at reading so she blurted out"Rick killed himself! He hung himself in his mothers house, because he hates you!" only later on did I re read the letter and found it wasnt my fault.

I started to write a song for him today Maybe ill post it later when I have it in its complete stage.

On to Less deppresssing Items...

Been listing to "lose you tonight"
gotta say its a pretty good song despite the singer.

My lil sister Shannon may come out this summer to visit me which will totally kick ass!
a chance to show off my talented little sister to my friends and also a few art schools,and im hopeing to show her just how perfect B.C really is in a attempt to have her move out here permanetly. Please check her site out and see just how talented she really is .http://www.freewebs.com/yori-umi/index.htm
Im just so freaking proud of her, so much proggress in only three years!

Was hanging out with Amy on friday night,god I miss hanging out with her
shes just such an easy person to be around, we hung out till late and then i made the treck back to my house.
Even though i was up so early on friday I still didnt get to bed till around 3 again.
I've been stuck in this pattern since the break up and cant seem to break it, lucky for me sebastian is usually still up so I at least have someone to chat with.

This week looks like it will present many chances for mischeif!! As I have three days off.
Im not sure what im gonna do but im sure it will be fun so I shall post that later.
I guess Ill wrap this up now.


Suggested song list:
1.Lose you tonight -HIM
2.Black no.1-Type-o-negitive
3.Yesterday-The Beatles
4.Vampirevision+methadonia-Screaming dead
5.Pictures of you-The cure